|photo credit: International ALERT Academy|
Growth that I want for Josh but will miss that last bit of immature-ness. While in ALERT they are not allowed to "horse" around. Will Josh still be fun loving?
Most of all I'm worried about our bond. I know that some day Joshua (and all my boys) will go off and get married. Love someone more than mom (as it should be), but for now, what if it's gone. What if that love for mom is more distant. I don't know - I just have a lot of heart issues with missing Josh.
I think for dads it's different. When Josh was little and needing to be more of a dad's boy than mom, I was and am willing to let him go and grow up to be the man God wants him to be. I understand that boys need their dads but this is different. I am not trying to keep him close and not let him become his own. I just miss him.
We were so blessed to have family and friends help out financially. Thanks to a friend we were able to put $200 in an ALERT credit account for Josh. If he needs more socks, a shirt, or even shampoo he can purchase some at the ALERT store.
Auntie R & Uncle C and Grandma/pa helped buy the tent. Auntie V bought him some awesome hiking socks and has been a huge encouragement to Josh.
I'm so proud of Joshua. He worked hard and saved the $3,465 and the application fee. I so wanted to pay it all for him but am thankful he was so willing. I know it will be a great motivator for him.
Here is a picture taken before they cut his hair. Joshua was introduced to his Squad Leader and the guys that will be in his squad unit. The binder books on the floor contain the book of 1 Peter, hymns, and some patriotic songs I believe.
And that is another set of coveted photos of Josh and what he's up to. What makes it hard on this mama is not being able to hear his voice over the phone, receiving a text message, or email. Not being able to ask, "What did you have for supper?" or "Did you forget anything?" or "How did your first day go?" just simple things like that.
I can email him but he will have to write snail mail which I'm thankful for but it's not the same. Okay, enough about how much I'm missing Joshua. I'm not all sadness. I'm happy for him. I know he will really lean on God and his relationship with Him will grow. I know he's in for an amazing adventure (as we like to call it). There will be homesickness but also growing. His walk with God is just getting better. I pray daily for him. I write him too. I pray that writing him almost daily via email does not cause more homesickness. I don't want to do anything that will make this harder for him.